International HIV -AIDS Conference worth while or not?

How can you judge if it was a good Conf. or not? by who's standards are we judging?I myself think it was a huge success and brought alot of info to alot of peoples who are even still now digesting the mountains of material that was given to us,the average HIV+ dude or dudette"i think it was enough to keep me going till xmas "james gough was in attendence at said conf and mentions that the massges were great,almost felt normal again!My second day back of course i where my 20.00 t-shirt(thought they were 2.)lol anyways it was freaky,and even more freaky is that now i come home and find a 35,000 check on my floor at the door(neighbor was putin mail under door while away on holidays eh)i find out that i will be cut off of my income and a whjole alot of other bullshit that i never knew i had to do before,MONEY sucks,it brings about alot more responability then i knew or even thought of ,its gettin me so pissed that i want to rip that check into little bitty pieces,and just forget it ever happened at all,anmyways i want to make a film about hiv and the implications of a single wrong desision.I am taking my time with this as i am not sure how to go about this,i even wrote bill gates and thanked him and his wife for all they have done on behalf of hiv + peoples everywheres and well for myself as i am included in that type of humans infected and living with this virus,hiv,ken@poweredbyprofessionals.com